So,anyone who knows me on even a semi-personal level, knows that I am a person who doesn't dwell on the past. I'm all about MOVING FORWARD and letting go of things/people/situations that are not the best for you.Case in point: My last "boyfriend"/Relationship.This relationship was not a good one. Don't get me wrong, I liked dude(and at one point, I even thought I LOVED him....silly me)and to say we never had good times would be a lie. We DEF did......BUT we also had BAD times. VERY BAD. I was in that situation for a while(a LOT longer than I should have been) and in that time, I dealt with EVERYTHING......anything you can think of, anything that YOU have ever been through with/taken from a man, I DID TOO. BUT, after countless tears,so many fights,so many lies,so many women,too many arguments,countless "I deserve better than this", I MOVED ON......I broke free. I LET GO. Never did I doubt that this man loved me....I KNEW he did....the way he would say it,the way he looked at me, and SOMETIMES in the way he treated me. BUT underneath all of that "love" was still "that" person. The person who couldn't fathom being faithful. The person who loved me, just not enough to give me what he and all his friends knew I needed/deserved.So after all was said and done, after he begged me to stay with him while he "worked on himself",after he begged for another chance. I thought he had finally gotten the point:We were done......FOR GOOD. Not the case at all....this dude has been calling,texting,Emailing me, claiming to be "ready"....ready for what?? ME......pssshhhhh. Too little too late, honey bun. They say you don't know what you've got til it's gone....this must be true.The funny thing is that through everything he put me through, I never strayed....NOT ONCE. I thought that I was done with that chapter of my life....hell, I AM done. So why can't the past stay there? Why does it take losing someone, for a person to understand a person's true value? It baffles my mind....now Im dealing with a person that I want nothing to do with, who is convinced we should be together. One thing about me is that I have a forgiving heart and I can't hold grudges BUT once I dead you, it's for good. He's dead to me. I feel like I'm rambling so I will end it with this:Don't treat your "treasures" like trash.....love those that love you.Don't break the heart that beats for you! and remember that the grass is hardly ever REALLY greener on the other side! It's greener where ever you take the time to "water " and take care of it.Love those that love you....period. J Bellz
